Autopsy of a Bad Affair-Mo's worries

Hello all....I've been away lookng for another job. I hate this place. But I do need a job, so I'm on the lookout. I've been putting my resume out there but so far no responses. Actually thats not true, I've had a couple of bites but nothing that I would leave this horrible job for. I don't want to leave a "semi-permanent" position for a temporary one, not do I want to leave this job for significantly less money than I make now. Anyway, enough of my whining.

The sick and twisted sniper(s) have been caught!! Yeah!!! GO Moose! Just had to get that in.

I'm not sure I have mentioned this before, but I live outside of Washington, DC, in Montgomery County, MD, not far from where the first sniper killings took place. I work in Arlington, Virginia, about 5 minutes from the last shooting. For some reason I'm not afraid of the sniper like most people in this area. I don't want to die, but I'm not afraid of it either. But I can still feel the creepiness in the air, and I sense the fear in most people around me. However there are a few like me that don't seem to be very worried. Well I shouldn't say we aren't worried. We are ALL worried, and I pray that no one else loses a loved one while they search for this wacko. I think this person is a sick fuck who should be tortured for the next 100 years. But when someone says "Be Careful", I always think...How exactly do I do that? I mean there isn't anyway that I can see to stop this guy if he has you in his crosshairs. How would you even know he was targeting you? So basically you better be right with God, and have your bags packed and ready to go. Also I always think that if it is your time, who are you to stop it? The last person killed was suffering from breast cancer, and was still undergoing therapy and fighting to save her life, yet she was gunned down anyway. Because of, or perhaps in spite of, the conflicts in my life I have thought of death frequently, so maybe my views are a bit tainted. I'm not saying you should never take any precautions to insure routine safety, but you shouldn't sit out on life just because there are evil people preying on innocent victims either. If you miss out...they win. To me that is the sickest part of all of this. Just like you can die suddenly from a massive aneurism, you can get hit by a bus, or mowed down by a sniper. I'm learning to make the most of the present, whatever that present happens to be, just because I am living it. Others aren't so lucky, and in a twinkling of an eye your luck can change, for the worst.

Hello all, for my three readers out there you'll be happy to know that I'm feeling better. About myself that is. I'm not sure why. I haven't lost any significant weight. But in any case, I feel okay. More okay than I have in awhile. Maybe this is what normal people call a "good day". I'm happy to be having it I tell ya. I needed a day like this. My job is going really well....sort of anyway. I don't actually like "the job" but I have a new co-worker who is blind, and I am enjoying making sure everything is totally accessible to him. I can see that I'm helping someone and that makes me feel good. I have never had any doubts that I'm actually a nice person. It's that I'm a fat nice person. I want to be a skinny nice person. Anyway, I don't much feel like going there today. To tell you the truth it gets terribly boring. Anyway...is anyone watching Real World? OMG...that guy Steve is so queer...and I don't mean in a good way. He is such a wuss. That chick Brynn is a psycho, but still he sounded like a little bitch whining about how he didn't feel safe. Whatever...she threw a damn fork at him! She should have punched him in the mouth. That show is a huge trigger for me though. All the chicks (except Brynn) are SUPER skinny. They can't ever eat. But I'm about to.....I'm going get something now, while I feel like it. Ciao!

Blogger hasn't really been reliable lately. Everytime I try to publish a post it gives me a template error message, which says that they are "working" on the problem. Mind you they've been "working" on it for about a month and a half now. It is quite irritating. It's also one of the reasons I haven't been posting much lately. Besides the fact that I haven't had much energy to type. It's really that I don't have the engery to hit publish ten times (required in order to update the page) once I've typed out a post. Anyway, there is a slight possiblility that I may be moving to the Dallas area. I'm keeoing my fingers crossed. My sister is working on a job for me. Hopefully it comes through. I would be making more money than I make here, and my rent would be less. That would really be great. I could also really control my eating habits there, with no one begging me to get something to eat. So far today all I've had is coffee with equal. I bought a Luna bar to eat, but I'm saving it for lunch. I'm gonna take a Stacker then cause it will keep my appetite at bay all night. I have a job tonight doing make-up for a photo shoot. I'm pretty excited about it, and I hope that I do well despite the fact that I'm sick right now. I hope I'm not coughing and sneezing all over the place.

Hello...just thought I'd say hello. I haven't dropped in in awhile. Lets see...I had an egg white sandwich this morning and a soup for lunch. Not too bad....but I've been so tired that I haven't been able to make it to the gym. Fat ass. I have to do better. I feel so fat and lazy. AHHH!!!!