Oh...and Another Thing...
I began to think about my comments about the swinger site. The one I won't mention. I feel as though I need to clarify something. I think I came off as a prude. I know, I know, I called it smut, but actually I don't have a problem with smut itself. I love smut. I even had an account (a long time ago) over at that site...(blushes). I was just pissed that they are turning Bloglinker into another way to spam people. Adding a site purely for profit to my list without my permission, and THEN trying to pass it off as a blog. That is what pissed me off. But I'm totally into the group sex thing...really.
I'm sitting here typing in front of the TV...my computer sits in the living room...and I'm watching this infomercial for "6-second Abs". What bullshit...this little piece of plastic crap won't do a damn thing for a beer gut. Besides real "six-packs" are made in the kitchen...not in the gym. We ALL have "six-packs"...underneath all the fat. You have to lose the fat on top which can't be done by "spot reducing". I'll get off of that for now...I get a little hyped up when I see flat out lies for profit. Speaking of which, here is a dirty little secret of the "diet & fitness industry". They use bodybuilders and fitness models for their advertisements. When a bodybuilder is on down-time...not training for anything, or in a mass (muscle building) cycle...they put on body fat. Believe me, that muscle machine is still underneath, and it is much easier for the fat to come off of their bulky frames than the average person who isn't in shape at all. So this is what they do...they find a bodybuilder who is currently in this mass cycle, but ready to start training to get "cut" or to shed their bodyfat for competition. Then they shoot the "before" pics. They give them the product to use for free (the companies, of course, don't care whether or not they actually use the product), and once they are down around the size the company wants for the ad (usually not all the way down to "bodybuilder form"), they do the "after" photo session or commercial/infomercial. This makes YOU think, you can get this product and have the same results.
Puts a whole new spin on "Results not Typical" doesn't it?
Self Loathing & Naval-Gazing
The funny thing about keeping a journal
(either online or old school, pen and paper) is that it forces you to really take a good look at yourself, and if you are anything like me, the reason I spend so much time isolated writing down fragmented thoughts in the first place, is because I really don't want to take a good look at myself. I don't really like myself. I love myself, but I think it takes alot more to
like somebody, even one's self. Not to mention my attention span is only but so long, so even when...maybe especially when the subject is me and my life, I get a little bored. Basically I'm just making excuses for not keeping this thing up (this blog) as well as I should have. I really do hate to see a blog that has been long neglected. It is a lonely feeling, like a puppy forgotten by a child and the parents have started taking little FiFi for walks because the kid got a new Playstation. I hate that from time to time, I am that kid. Totally abandoning my pet...my little blog. Yet each time I return it is here eager for any word or thought that I feel ready to share. Wagging it's tail and piddling on the floor; just happy I'm back.
I've been thinking about this place for some time now. Planning on reappearing and leaving a few random thoughts here or there, but life has a way of postponing even the best intentions. I also think that it is a bad idea for me to attempt to write something everyday. I know that some people swear by it, but to be honest sometimes I just don't have a damn thing to say...to anyone, about anything. I hate to admit it, but the catalyst to get me back in the game, was an email. An email from Bloglinker.com, informing me that I had been linked to by a swingers site. A site whose name I will not mention here because I do not want to provide them ANY free advertisements. This is the reason I deleted the link from my Bloglinker list. How dare they use something as great as Bloglinker to advertise that smut? Anyway, it made me visit my page and I remembered how great it is. How
me it is. How homey and comfortable...and I decided that is was time to share again. It feels good.
I'm having problems in my life again. All sorts of problems. Financial, romantic, you name it, I'm in it right now. I'll go into more detail later, but I AM feeling foolishly optimistic about it all. Everything will be okay. This IS the Year of the Monkey. Mind you I'm not a monkey on the Chinese zodiac (I'm a rabbit), but my nickname since I was very little has been Monkie...to my immediate family anyway, so I feel some sort of energy from this little coinky-dink.
I'll check in much sooner. I promise this to myself. I have many more details to share yet somehow I just don't feel like rehashing it all right now. I'll let it trickle in...trickle, trickle. Ciao bella.
