Where Have You Been?
Yes, I've taken a bit of a hiatus. I've noticed that its always in really bad times that I feel compelled to visit this place. Which is maybe why I steer clear during times that are more stable. Maybe subconsciously I think I'll bring about more bad times. The truth is...as long as I have a certain person living in my house, there will always be bad times...period. Of course we have a few weeks, here and there, spread out through the year when things
seem fine, but its always either an illusion or a big fat lie...those actually being the same thing in most cases. My title for this little rant serves two purposes. One, obviously I haven't posted in some time. Two, when am I going to wake the hell up and give up on this hell hole, lifeforce sucking, self esteem robbing, sorry excuse for a relationship. Technically my heart isn't in it, and I guess we haven't been "together" technically in some time now, but he is still here. He won't leave. I called the cops twice. There isn't anything they can do. It's so sad. Actually I have to officially evict him, by filing an eviction notice with the Sheriff's office across town. Just haven't gotten around to that yet so I guess it's really my fault. Of course being swift as American Justice seems to be...it will take thirty days from the day I file before I can put him out, or should I say before the cops can come and put him out. He came home tonight from work about three hours late. Smelling like a perfume factory, with StaminaRx in his pocket...that is an herbal sex stimulant for those of you not "in the know"...which I assume he needs cause everytime he's seeing someone he uses it. He even had the nerve to crawl in the bed with me...kiss the back of my head and go to sleep. Which, is why I'm up typing at 4:28 in the morning.
I have a doctor's appointment in 4 hours. I should be sleeping but that is really hard for me to do when I'm angry. I was hoping that this would bore me and send me right back to bed, but I'm just getting more pissed.
I started Body for Life about 6 weeks ago, and had to stop about 2 weeks ago due to some "stomach issues". This is the reason for the visit to the doctor. Hopefully I will feel better by Sunday and can pick up right where I left off. I also found out when I tried to give blood on Monday that I'm severely anemic right now...that could be part of my problems, so they will check that out too.
On happier news...I just received a promotion at work! It was time for my annual review so everything worked out well. I had my review and got really good responses on everything...so I get a merit increase in pay for that. Plus I get another increase for my promotion, and I get another increase due to the "market" values of Web Developers...my new position. Needless to say I'm very excited.
Okay...I think this will do for now. Hopefully I'm feeling just good enough now to get some sleep. If not then..I'll be back!
