Yawn...I am sooooo sleepy. Actually tired is a much better description. I am surprisingly alert considering that I only had about 2 hours of sleep last night, and I've been up since 1:15AM. I went to bed at 11PM, after a hot shower and an even hotter session with my hubby, all prepared for some really good coma-like sleep. Well I woke up to go to the bathroom (one of my many nightly trips) at exactly 1:15AM. I can be so precise because the alarm clock is on my side of the bed. I regularly give it a quick check whenever I head to the bathroom in the middle of the night. I assumed that just like any other night, after getting back settled in bed, I would drift right off into a nice peaceful slumber. I tossed and turned in the bed until around 3:30-4AM, and then decided to get up, get dressed (shorts and a tank anyway), and go get on the sofa for a challenging game of Sudoku...SURELY that would put me to sleep. Well it is now 2:00PM, and I'm still awake. I never did get back to sleep.
Around 7:20 this morning when my husband and I were getting ready for work, I told him that I didn't see how I could possibly make it through the entire day, but that I would try. Well I'm hanging in there. I don't know how, but I seem to be making it through the day...so far anyway. I'm sure I will pass out as soon as I get home, and HOPEFULLY wake up in time to see American Idol. I'll Tivo it in any case, but so far I haven't missed an episode (except for the night of the Jamie Foxx special which I made sure to watch, THEN I watched the recorded version of AI an hour after it was broadcast), so I hope I can make it until then. I'm not sure how I'm making it now...but I AM sure that I need some more coffee...hell I need some meth at this point, but I don't do drugs.
Damn that DARE program. Damn it to hell.
More Changes than an ABC Recap Show Could Cover...Absent, yes that is what I have been, absent. Well since my last post my whole world changed and then when I thought it couldn't take another plot twist, everything changed again. Well lets try to recap.
Well after re-reading my last post, I now remember where I left off. Bills, EP, PD, etc., and most everything has changed. MOST everything. We'll get to the bills in a moment. Starting with EP...I have not seen him since that Wednesday from the last time a posted. It was my choice. I decided after much consideration to give this thing with PD one more chance, and as crazy as that seems, so far, so good. Basically PD came back saying how much he missed me, and that he was sorry for everything he ever did bad to me, and yadda, yadda, yadda. It wasn't so much his words, but his actions that made me think things were different this time. He moved back in August 1st, and we were married September 21st. Yes married. I said it. You aren't hearing things, YES we were married. On a Wednesday no less. Our lovely little lady was very excited, and still talks about Mommy and Daddy's wedding. We also found out that we are going to be parents again. All this happened right around the same time, and I'm sure you can tell in what order, although not necessarily presented in that order. We are moving in February, where we don't know yet, but the lease is up and we need a bigger place. Hopefully we find something soon.
As far as the bill situation, it is much better. Everything isn't sorted out just yet, but with two incomes again things are much easier. I get about 3/4's of PD's check direct deposited into my account every pay period, and so I pay all the bills from my account. Things are looking up at this point, and I haven't really had to go off on anyone since we got back together. He has I must say lived up to his word, and although it has been a short 5 months that is a record for PD. If he can do 5 months, he can do forever. Also, its not just with me that he is different...it's with everyone. And at this point he at least knows when he is losing it, and quickly finds it again.
I'll have to keep you up-to-date on the house search. Its been quite unnerving to be pregnant and looking for a home. I'm not flipping out completely yet, but I'm getting close. Okay...enough for now. I'll update again soon. Promise (fingers NOT crossed behind back)...
See ya...
